Life This Week 21/5/2018: My Biggest Fear.


My biggest fear is change.

I’m one of those people who tends to take the negative view on change. To me, change is losing what I have and know.  A new car means losing a car whose quirks I know and whose size is so familiar I can park it without my blood pressure rising.  Getting older means having to take those niggles a little more seriously and looking a little less closely at myself in the mirror. It also means that those you love are getting older too.  Don’t get me started on that tine all the bus routes changed or when everything at work went paperless….

I’ve reached an incredibly blessed stage of life where I have so much.  Love, security, self identity, purpose, good health, self awareness and self confidence.  On the self confidence, perhaps it’s more ‘who cares what everyone else thinks?  They’re all preoccupied with their own lives.

It’s an irrational fear and also a fear I need to release because life is change.  Whether I like it or not, change is a constant I can do nothing to stop.

When I look back at the changes I hated most, much of the pain surrounded the uncertainty of what to expect once the change had taken place.  Then whatever had to change did so and I somehow survived. 

The ‘somehow’ involved acceptance and then the desire to just get on with it.  Both powerful motivators when faced with change.

Looking forward, what I plan to do when faced with change is to be brave and embrace it.  To be open to all the possibilities that change can hold.  A life without change can be a boring one and a life trying to fight change on all fronts can be draining. 

Do you fear change? 


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